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July 2, 2026
Published by krrishhealthcare@gmail.com on July 2, 2026
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The end of June
It was a rainy evening. I was in the back seat of my car, returning home after a long, hectic day at work. It was the 1st of July. Earlier that afternoon, I’d made a journal entry about how eventful June had been. I was simply jotting down incidents, and I realised just how many firsts the month had brought into my life. Then, somewhere during the drive, I found myself listening to songs that I once associated with ‘N’. But something had changed. I wasn’t grieving him anymore. I was simply… cosying up to the idea of him. Love had become a pleasant nostalgia. Even without a partner, love still existed—and it no longer hurt. It felt like a memory. A safe one. One of my own making. A space that felt like a warm hug. Arms that felt like love and safety. And then my mind wandered back to something my therapist had called me a couple of months earlier… “A hopeless romantic.” We processed a great deal after that—work that, in many ways, helped me arrive at the centredness I experience today. I’ll write about that journey another day, in another blog. But for now, that memory […]
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July 2, 2026
Published by krrishhealthcare@gmail.com on July 2, 2026
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The Price of Looking Like a Doctor
“You don’t look like a doctor!” I’ve heard that quite a few times, less and less over the years… People usually mean it as an observation. Sometimes it’s a compliment. Sometimes it’s criticism disguised as curiosity.My response is usually simple, ” I know” or “I don’t want to!”Because to look like a doctor, I first have to conform to someone else’s idea of what a doctor should look like. And I’ve never been particularly good at conforming to norms. There have been days when a patient’s father has looked at me and laughed, “You look like a rockstar.”I smiled and replied, “I am a rockstar that fixes smiles.” I took that as one of the nicest compliments I’ve ever received.Why should medicine and personality be mutually exclusive? Why can’t a doctor have long hair, a beard, pierced ears, tattoos, colourful socks, or a loud laugh? Why is competence so often judged by appearance before character? But then not every interaction is pleasant, though. Once, I was about to consult a patient whom I had already been warned could be rude. As I began taking the medical history, the patient muttered one word— “Gay kahin ka!” —and walked out.Perhaps there was […]
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June 24, 2026
Published by krrishhealthcare@gmail.com on June 24, 2026
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A Different Kind of Happily Ever After ♡
A Different Kind of Happily Ever After Growing up queer is strange… For many of us, our younger years are spent in denial, confusion, bargaining, or simply trying to survive. We learn very quickly which parts of ourselves are acceptable and which parts are better hidden away. Maybe that is why ‘youth’ becomes such a prized thing in queer spaces. We are constantly reminded that attractiveness has an expiry date. That being young is valuable… desirable… and your worth is attached to your youth! For a long time, I bought into that idea too. At first, I thought staying young was important. Then, as I got older, I told myself that “staying young at heart” was what really mattered. But somewhere along the way I realised that even that definition was tied to external validation. How old do I look? Can I still party like the younger crowd? Am I still adventurous enough? Can I still blend in and belong? I was constantly seeking adventure. Or perhaps hopping from one adventure to another. One excitement to the next. There was always something to chase, somewhere to be, someone to meet, a story waiting to happen. Eventually, however, time does what […]
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May 27, 2026
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Log Kya Kahenge!
“Log kya kahenge…”Ye sunte sunte — ab log kehne lage hain… Sawal ye nahi haike log keh kyun rahe hain…Ye to unki fitrat hai — wo kahenge! Sawal ye hai ke —kya tum sun loge? Poori zindagi…agar unke mutaabik zindagi na chuni to? Sawal ye nahi ke —log samajhte kyun nahi…Wo tumhe nahi samjhenge! Sawal ye hai ke —unke sawaal tumhe dadolate kyun hain? Sawal ye nahi ke —unki nasihatein tumhe jachti nahi!Shayad kabhi jachengi bhi nahi! Sawal ye hai ke —tum kabse “log kya kahenge”issey sharminda hone lage? 15th May 2026, 08:59 AM There comes a point in life when you realise that “Log kya kahenge?” was never just a sentence.It was conditioning.A silent inheritance passed from one generation to another — disguised as concern, morality, guidance, respectability, even love Slowly, without noticing, many of us begin editing ourselves around that fear! We rehearse our choices before making them.We dilute our opinions before expressing themWe hide parts of ourselves to remain digestible to people who were never going to fully understand us anyway… As a 36-year-old queer cis-male — partly out of the closet and partly nonchalant about it — I still get asked when I am getting married, […]
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May 5, 2026
The Noise of Casual Sex
Published by krrishhealthcare@gmail.com on May 5, 2026
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The Noise of Casual Sex
For a person whose predominant Love language is physical touch and quality time, nothing draws me closer to a person more than physical intimacy. And perhaps that is exactly why casual intimacy becomes so dangerous and exhausting for someone like me, and maybe you too… Because what happens when a person who associates sex with vulnerability, surrender, romance and emotional nakedness… starts engaging in meaningless casual sexual encounters with strangers? What happens to his heart? The heart still longs for intimacy that transcends the body. It still craves that feeling where two people do not merely touch skin, but dissolve into each other’s existence. Where desire is not just physical hunger, but emotional communion that permeates beyond the flesh. Where bodies entangle, and somehow spirits do too! But then the mind intervenes. It creates walls. Walls that demarcate how much of emotional nakedness is permitted within the perimeter of this sexual escapade… How much, if you ask…?Well just enough to satisfy the body. No deeper. You do not let anyone enter the inner chambers of your being. You learn dissociation…. train yourself to stop at the flesh and teach yourself how to remain emotionally untouched while physically exposed. But can […]
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April 27, 2026
Published by krrishhealthcare@gmail.com on April 27, 2026
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✨“Sometimes it is the darkness that I miss the most.”✨
That evening began at the Vizag Tirupati Balaji Temple. The sun was setting as I sat on the steps of the temple after darshan, having a mouthful of prasad. Still in formals, with a tote bag, hands folded, head bowed—heart oddly steady. I meditated for a while next to the stambh. The ambient sounds of winds blowing and the chanting of “Om Namo Venkatesaya” playing on loop—blissful and soul-stirring…I carried a quiet gratitude back into my chest. The 59th Indian Orthodontic Conference, Vizag, concluded that afternoon—successfully, smoothly. My lecture on leading a comprehensive cleft team as an orthodontist was well appreciated and applauded by one and all. Conversations wrapped up, smiles exchanged, hands shaken. By evening, despite feeling accomplished and appreciated, I wasn’t ecstatic, nor jittery. Just calm. Deeply, peacefully quaint. The kind of happiness that doesn’t shout—only rests. I didn’t even know, until I reached Vizag for the conference, that there was a Tirupati Balaji Temple by the same TTD trust of Tirumala in Vizag—it was inaugurated in 2022, according to the internet. And from the moment I heard of it, I was longing for HIM… to get darshan of Venkateshwara. I decided to take the manuscript of Phir […]
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