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June 24, 2026
A Different Kind of Happily Ever After ♡
A Different Kind of Happily Ever After Growing up queer is strange… For many of us, our younger years are spent in denial, confusion, bargaining, or simply trying to survive. We learn very quickly which parts of ourselves are acceptable and which parts are better hidden away. Maybe that is why ‘youth’ becomes such a prized thing in queer spaces. We are constantly reminded that attractiveness has an expiry date. That being young is valuable… desirable… and your worth is attached to your youth! For a long time, I bought into that idea too. At first, I thought staying young was important. Then, as I got older, I told myself that “staying young at heart” was what really mattered. But somewhere along the way I realised that even that definition was tied to external validation. How old do I look? Can I still party like the younger crowd? Am I still adventurous enough? Can I still blend in and belong? I was constantly seeking adventure. Or perhaps hopping from one adventure to another. One excitement to the next. There was always something to chase, somewhere to be, someone to meet, a story waiting to happen. Eventually, however, time does what […]
June 23, 2026
Chapter 2: Feedback
The Dr. Jirgey auditorium of Basaveshwara Academy of Higher Education & Research was still buzzing long after the performances had ended. Students crowded near the stage barricades while volunteers struggled to clear cables and equipment. Somewhere in the back, the physiotherapy & ayurveda college students had already begun chanting their own  respective slogans despite not having won anything yet. “Bhai, if Medical doesn’t win this, judges are blind,” someone shouted confidently. “Obviously yaar! Scintillating Euphoria killed it.” Near the backstage corridor, one of the band members was replaying snippets from their performance on his phone while the others crowded around laughing. “Look at the crowd during the drop!” “Arrey… Pause kar! Pause kar! — look at Utsav’s hair flying!” “Total rockstar, bro!” Utsav sat sprawled lazily over a plastic chair, towel around his neck, still flushed from the stage lights. Niyati stood beside him sipping cold coffee. The rest of the band members were back by then after a couple of shots, from hidden liquor bottles in their car, parked outside the campus “You’re enjoying this too much,” Niyati smirked. “We deserve it!” winked Utsav. “Oh absolutely. Your ego especially,” her eyes lifted with sarcasm. Utsav grinned shamelessly, “Best performance […]
June 19, 2026
Too Gay to Be Bi 🩷💜💙
Yesterday, an old colleague confidently informed me that I am not bisexual! Not because they had lived my life or known my relationships, or because they had any intimate knowledge of my attractions. But because they had “met me.” Apparently, that was enough for them to know my orientation! What began as a conversation about a story I am currently writing slowly drifted towards sexuality, labels, identity, and eventually, me. Somewhere in the middle of that discussion, I mentioned that while “I am not particularly fond of labels, if I had to choose one, I identify as bisexual.” And mind you, the person also associates themselves as part of the queer community. And funnily, their response to my declaration of being Bi was immediate, “No, you’re not.” A more reasonable response could still have been — “Really?” or “I didn’t know that.” or “Tell me more.” Rather it was just a flat-out rejection of a reality I have lived with for years. And I found that fascinating… Maybe a little offensive too, but not too shocking. Just fascinating… because it reminded me of something that bisexual people often encounter, both inside and outside the LGBTQIA+ community: the assumption that other […]
June 19, 2026
Chapter 1 : Reverb
The plush Dr. C. S. Jirgey auditorium trembled with noise. A thousand college students packed into the seats, stairways, aisles, and even near the exits where cultural committee members and fest committee volunteers had long given up trying to control the crowd. It was the largest indoor auditorium in the cosy city of Belagavi, in North Karnataka, housed inside the premises of the Basaveshwara Academy of Higher Education & Research (BAHER). Flashlights flickered like restless fireflies in the dark. The air smelled of sweat, cheap perfume, stage smoke, and overheated amplifiers. “MEDICOOOOOOS….” a deafening roar erupted from the left wing of the auditorium. “UTSAV! UTSAV! UTSAV!” Kuldeep Mukherjee winced slightly backstage. “God,” muttered the guitarist beside him, peeking through the curtain. “Your competition has fan clubs.” Kuldeep adjusted the silver ring on his finger and exhaled slowly, “Sure… Looks more like a political rally than a music competition.” Aditya Vaid, his junior from final year BDS and the accompanying guitarist laughed nervously. “You’re not scared, right?” Kuldeep looked toward the stage lights spilling through the curtains — “Scared? No… Anxious? A little maybe… Regretful? possibly a lot!” The anchor’s voice boomed through the auditorium. “And nowwwww… the winners of last […]
June 13, 2026
Chapter 3 : The Window Left Ajar
“It was never because you didn’t matter to me,” Smita had written. “You did. A lot.” Kunal stared at the line for a long time before finally typing back: “Why did you never talk to me!” Her reply came almost immediately: “It’s ok.” But it wasn’t. Not really. Kunal leaned back in the chair inside the clinic pantry, the half-finished lunch lying forgotten beside him. Outside, he could hear faint sounds of assistants moving around, patients talking, metal instruments clinking somewhere in the distance. Ordinary life continuing uninterrupted while something inside him quietly came undone. “I mean… we were probably never meant to be together,” he typed slowly. “Because our families, our cultures, our societal status were so different. We would probably never have reached your world, and it would’ve been too difficult for you to step down into ours. And I don’t deny that…” He paused for a moment before continuing. “But you didn’t have to go through all of it alone. You didn’t have to swallow all that bitterness alone.” “That’s ok,” she replied. “It’s my karma. For not being able to stand up for you… for our love.” Kunal stared at the screen. “It’s our karma.” “Maybe.” […]
June 8, 2026
Chapter 2 : Why did you Let Go?
“Why did you let go?” Kunal texted. The typing indicator appeared. Disappeared. Kunal immediately typed again. “I’m sorry if it’s an unsolicited question after all these years.” “No no,” Smita replied. Kunal waited for a response. A couple of minutes passed, but the typing indicator did not return. The silence itself began to feel heavy. Before he could stop himself, he continued typing. “I mean… I always told myself what I heard from you back then. That you lost feelings for me because of the long distance. And after all that time when I was still trying to fight for you tooth and nail through 2018 and 2019, I finally gave up too. When you said you didn’t feel for me the same way anymore, I just told myself I needed to let go of you.” The typing indicator appeared again. And then finally, after what felt like a very long five minutes, her message arrived. “Kunal, I’ll be very frank.” Something inside him went completely still as he opened the message and watched it fill his screen. “Kunal… I don’t think I ever ‘let go’ in a simple or emotionless way. I think somewhere along the line, the distance, […]